Writing my own story. 我正在写自己的故事.

小小的部落格，说出心里想说的话。。。。 = ）


I am who I am... 我就是我. Randy, 22 le. Still searching myself. Loves....techie thingys, K-pop and etc.


yin min
wan ping
siti
shawny
wistera
xue ying
grace
samantha
mel
shamala
elaine
cindy
nurimah
azlan
viknesh
lesley
sandy
jasmine
dennis
jasper
jason
briana
charlene
aik kai
my fyp2 team blog
huiyan
dawnice
pei xin
joan
ted sis

I just hope, this silent stress can be gone. That's what I hope for.

The feeling came back again. I don't know why. Why can't I forget "it"? Is it because whenever I saw "it", the feeling will be back or whenever I saw "it" tallking with other males, the feeling will be back?

Why I like "it" at first? Why not others or simply not liking anyone? Why?

I guess...the friendship between me and "it"...

Might turn shaky...

But I am not hoping for that because it is a devil's curse to me. I have to break it...and be normal again...

But I guess, one day...it will fade off...I might have to be prepared for that.

Sometimes how I wish I can spilit class and forget everything...

Today, Maths module. Something related to probability. Emm..same team with Mu Xing, Shu Ting and Bryan. I guess this partnership is the first time though. Hoping more chance to work with them. I guess I do need some time to adapt though.

Anyway today during presentation, I thought my "brother", Jia Wen was about to help me click for my ppt. End up..err..

Then now I thought of it, I felt so bad. When I will change my mindset?

Today, Sarah initiate an class outing idea.

Frankly speaking, now meeting the devil's curse, I don't feel like going. Everytime saw "it" online, I will feel moody. I don't know why. Then I will end up listening to S.H.E - 天灰.

I like this song a lot, whenever I feel moody. It represents my moodiness.

Today, I woke up around 0555. I told myself, no matter what happen, I must fight on!!

And that's for sure...

Over the weekend, really thanks to my classmate, Sarah, who gave me lots of encouragement and motivating words. She told me, I must be more confidence.

Yah, that's the weakness I have for numerous years.

She did asked me whether I got stead before. My answer no..Emm..I guess I don't wish to hope to have girlfriend liaosx...cause I guess I myself won't have one 的巴.....

Have given up hope on searching the dream one, I guess now, it is better for me to forget "it"...and carry on my life!!