Writing my own story. 我正在写自己的故事.

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I am who I am... 我就是我. Randy, 22 le. Still searching myself. Loves....techie thingys, K-pop and etc.


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wan ping
siti
shawny
wistera
xue ying
grace
samantha
mel
shamala
elaine
cindy
nurimah
azlan
viknesh
lesley
sandy
jasmine
dennis
jasper
jason
briana
charlene
aik kai
my fyp2 team blog
huiyan
dawnice
pei xin
joan
ted sis

3 days past.

For the past 3 days, I do learnt about something about life.

Hmm, anyway, maybe update what happened to me for the past 3 days.

Thursday, History of the Arts module. This time is on ancient musical instrument. Hehe, my team chose China, so still okay la though still met difficulties.

Then sat Ananth's Mercedes for the 1st time, I was like wowed la!! (Diao...like very swa koo 1st time seat merc)

Friday's Art Criticism and Analysis lesson is quite fun. Create blog and write music review. But la, my team was rushing like SIAO!!!! Cannot change blogskin (finally can), then music reviews were those last min chiongster type and somemore have to give comments to other teams.

But finally, everything was sui sui..haha!! And tat day, I was so lazy end up skip Friday chanting and things went bad....

Saturday, which is yesterday. After PC activity, I went to have some makan with some PC peeps and went to Boat Quay for a drink with Kang Wei, Aik Kai and Wei Chuan. We shared a lot of things yesterday night. And really, from yesterday night, I can better understand myself....

Today? Wake up late = late for student activity.

Hmm, oh yah, if u guys wanna see the blog done by my team , aha the link is http://musicwithus.blogspot.com

I guess, today I didn't have much to say, so end up though...


Sometimes, I really wondering why humans faced problems.

Definitely, there are many answers to this doubt. It can be in just a normal people's view or based on a religion theory view.

I guess, problems can make one stronger or sometimes weaker?

No matter what, I guess one thing anyone can do to survive with problems, keep fighting.

Keep fighting in the meaning of never give up, strive on even problems comes upon you.

Hmm, today is really an unlucky day to me. Loss of money = how to go to school = no money to eat = how to survive for the next few days?

I learnt something today, even when you faced problems, just faced it and tell yourself you can do it.

Hmm, I got nothing much to say today so I shall end here though....


Getting high?

Perhaps sometimes when you met a problem till you really want to escape, you might end up "high".

This "high" effect is like escaping from the problem and just enjoy what you want to do.

It may be scary but this kind of effect will end up making yourself temperory irresponsible, getting yourself into more trouble etc.

Anyway, skip that topic. Today, I guess it's a bit confusing days.

Tedsis ask me go gym. Cannot go. Kah Kian ask me go SLA fiesta. Cannot go.

So end up, both of them like not happy. That made me, like diao...what to do sia...

Today's problem statement (creative concepts) is about creating a fictitious religion. The problem statement seems very hard (chim).

My team discuss a few ideas from those obscence to music. End up still choose music and we did quite okay la for presentation although I admit I didn't contribute much cause go attend talk during lunch break.

And, something bad happened to me, I become fortune god by losing 10 dollars. Sian diao...how to survive for the next 3 days??

I guess, later gotta ask my mum got money to spare or not....

Sian diao, very paiseh lei everytime ask money from parents....

But for survival, how sia??

Aiyoh...confused....


Do you think the picture above is consider an art?




Yet to get used to...STA environment though.

I am struggling badly. And even thought of requesting transfer back to my old kampung, SIT.

A few days back, went to see my programme chair, Amy Khoo. She is willing to hear all my problems and even she couldn't transfer me out as there is no more transfering allow.

I did told her, what I want to do in the future. She gave me some tips, encouragement and asked me to stay on.

Since there is no choice, I just have to stay on though.

Hope, things gets better for the next 2 years. Difficult, but I hope....I can make out of the best though.

Yesterday, my brother and parents went to PC for Friday chanting session which is a good thing. But what happened today really saddens me...I better not say much....

Hope things can change for the better....


I am missing memories.

The class bonding spirit. The fun during classroom. FPC2 havocs and chaos and more!!

I miss W24B la!! and my sem 1 class W26Q and SIT.

Cause, I know quite a few @ SIT, suddenly @ STA. Not like at my real home lei... = (

Anyway, how my 2 days as DNM student begins like this....

1st day late like hell cause lappy haven join domain, no MS office. Go It helpdesk join domain but cannot install Office. Sian diao la!!

Then very de suay, I am late for lesson, during all meetings.

End up, C grade loh from ang moh faci. Damned...but nvm la. I will try harder nxt time.

Today lei, creative concepts. Analyse 3 print ads of our choice and blah blah blah....

Kanna the team, all males. Starting quite quiet la, when we do work, aha can la.

Daniel got Tiberium Sun, solid la. Ask him nxt wk bring, hope he will...game!!

I realise, my class, got a few play game de. Good!! Even tat Sandy, also play DOTA de, mxx loh!!

She got complain to me about David, my sem 1 classmate, but I gotta told her, get used to it.

As we walk frm E2 to agora tdy, she told me she missed the class bonding element.

I can tell u, ME TOO!!!

I need to W26Q and W24B aura!! Need urgently!!

Hope E24D will create one la!!

Hmm...end here liao for today : )




























Let it go....sooner or later, it will be gone. It's a matter of how long will it be.

No point waiting, since she has like another guy.

Express your feeling to her. At least things gets better for you. Even she rejects you, you will still feel happy because you already let know that you like her.

Wait. Since she is taking O Level this year, why not wait till she completes it then say?

It may be a sign that she is now in her down period. Organise a surprise thingy for her.

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Suddenly, you see all these thingys in my blog.

Yes, I am pondering.

Yes, I am waiting.

Yes, I might give up.

No, feeling still there.

Yes, I am indeed confused.

Yet, things have to go naturally.

Perhaps, I should...concern my family more on her.....

Anyway, this few days...went out SHOPPING? Yeah...

Thursday went out with Hong Ming. We went to Bugis looking for wallet. Later, past by Bras Basah. He bought a watch. Later, on the way to Pennisula Plaza saw Bernice. She changed a lot liao! Haha, yah. She is entering TP. Y no ppl wan to come RP de? HAHA (crap)...

Anyway, past by This Fashion. Thought that Auntie Elaine would be working. Never saw her la, if not she confirm "eat snake" de..HAHA, heard she say her working place boring like hell. Pity her la...

Yah, and me bought a nice simple design, Casio watch. 33 bucks.

Then go to Marina Square shop shop, met Young Hoon also. Haha, went to tried shoes instead. But can't get my size...sian diao...

Today, after collection of my younger sis's electronic dictionary @ Creative HQ, I took 51 to PC. Journey time = 1 hr 10 to 15 mins. Damn long la...luckily the bus is not those lkk de.

Reached PC. Do evening Gongyo and friday chanting starts. After it ends, Reverend Kato gave his speech and lastly, believer's experience sharing. Today's one...to me, I felt this Uncle very de power la.

He said, 1983 her wife started chanting because of their daughter's sickness. At that time, he is a male chavunist. Always thinks about work and drinking but not his family.

In 1987, he kanna an accident. One of his foot, 4th and 5th toes crushed, 2nd and 3rd no more. He had to do 2 operations and 3 months medical leave.

Many believers and his wife tried to persuade him to chant Nam-myoho-renge-kyo. But he is too strong headed la. Don't want to chant.

Slowly, he met lots of problems like cannot get along with colleagues, jobless etc.

And got one incident, he met an sinking ship accident. At that moment, he went to chant Nam-myoho-renge-kyo many times. And, a ship went to their rescue.

From then on, he begin to chant and Gojukai. Also, he is willing to spend more time with his family and his temp job become perm.

Really, lucky for him lei...How I wish my family can chant together...

Hehe...KK...not to think too much. Let everything go naturally.

Aiyah, I think I shall end here la.


170th.

It's been nearly a year since I started this blog. Today is already the 170th post.

Time really flies fast.

Today, I saw 3 Harley Davidson when I was going to have dinner outside. Looks nice.

Somehow, I felt sleepy today. Missed morning Gongyo, have yet to do evening Gongyo.

I guess, later I better do my evening one before I go to bed.

That's all for today.


Indian rojak nearly kill my throat. Today, Dennis, kang Wei and I went to Seah Im Food Centre (at HarbourFront Bus Int) to makan. Yah, I was smsing while eating Indian rojak. Suddenly I felt a sharp pain in my throat. Damn pain.

So, what Kang Wei told me, keep gaggle water into throat. So, now better liao, but need a few more days for throat to recover. Sobx.... = (

Then, we went to watch Mr Bean's Holiday. Quite an average rated movie la. So-so with some humour parts. Hehe...

Then 2nd suay thing happen loh. Gastric pain terribly. Even after makan Carl's Jr, still pain. Resort to buy medicine and rest at the outdoor area while hearing Dennis and Kang Wei chit chat.

They bit lame la, take pics of me sleeping. Say I am a sleeping model la...HAHA... LMAO...

Basically, now I am like a bit of sick cat state. Body temperature bit high...

What will happen next...I still don't know


Ever since after chalet, I am back to become a slacker. Everyday sleep late like hell. 7am, my all time record. Wake up very late like hell too, 2 till 3 pm.

2 more weeks to school reopen, how can me continue this kind of habit??

Things really change too much. Sometimes, I couldn't accept it yet have to.

My brother's situation getting worse off. He even threaten to quit school. It's been a dissapointing period for now. I don't know when things will change for the better.

I guess the only thing I can do, just chant Nam-myoho-renge-kyo and pray that he and her can change for the better.

Last Friday, went drinking with KK, Dennis, Jie Sheng and Kah Hwee. Also on the same day, I got my pay but because of debts owed and plus drinking of "high-class" drinks, I only left $100 plus now.

That day, I was quite "high". Tequila shot in a wrong way, rubbish words coming out from me. I guess, I am rubbish that day.

Sunday. Went to PC monthly Kosenrufu chanting session. What Reverend Takikawa said really make sense. It is never easy to maintain faith, but as long we are able to maintain it and also forge on strong practice, we can benefit good fortune and able to eradicate our negative karma.

I will remember this, and keep improving my faith and practice....

KK...Anyway after that, lunch as usual at Sims Place Food Centre. Chicken rice again....HAHA = )

Then when shopping with Kang Wei and Hong Ming. I wanted to buy a wallet but, end up that day, I couldn't find one at all la. Anyway, I saw my sec sch classmate, Yao Wei. Haha, he working at Topshop @ Bugis Junction. Hmm...maybe I buy Topman wallet got discount...muahahaha!!

Actually, I admit, when things goes bad, I really feel like not giving a damn to it.....but now, I am caught in a dillema. Should I concern about my brother more or her?

But about her, I guess she got Hui Qi to take care of her bah...

Yesterday, I just found out my timetable cum class roster. Same, E24D and E25C. And so zhun la, same class with my brother Jia Wen lei, E25C. But she has no lesson on Wednesday and me only got to E25C on Wednesdays because of elective module. Also, same class with Hui Min for 4 days (Core modules, DNM), David (Common STA module, but same for Tuesdays only) and Sylvia (Common STA module, same for Friday only).

And just realised, I nearly everyday got mixed classmates lei. But still got some is same for 4 days de....

And 5 out of 5 facis are males. 3 are angmohs. No females. (diaoz...HAHA...better like this la...??)

And elective module on Wednesday, meaning, no free day for 1 whole semester. Pity myself because I want to clear elective asap.

Hmm, I gotta congrats Samantha and Dennis, for having a China Born faci on Mondays. Wish you all good luck la!! (Diaoz...too crappy liao)

But frankly speaking, I miss SIT la!! ARRRRRRGH!!! But hopefully STA can equally give me a wonderful 2 yrs of poly life bah...hmm...thinking of have to speak more English because of STA's environment, I felt a bit, jia lat la...me cina siao not angmoh siao....

Never mind, I believe I can do it!! Hehe = )

Today, no matter how, I must help my mama mop and sweep the floor...hmm...gotta do it later.

2 more weeks, gonna miss W2 terribly. The block where I spend my whole entire poly yr1 life with. I miss the ah siao class, W26Q. And the gaga class, W24B. Thanks for providing me a wonderful yr 1!! Thanks peeps!! Oh yah, oso thanks former W26P peeps la!!

And, 2 more weeks, I gotta say.

Hello, E2, how are you?

KK...end here liao..