Writing my own story. 我正在写自己的故事.

小小的部落格，说出心里想说的话。。。。 = ）


I am who I am... 我就是我. Randy, 22 le. Still searching myself. Loves....techie thingys, K-pop and etc.


yin min
wan ping
siti
shawny
wistera
xue ying
grace
samantha
mel
shamala
elaine
cindy
nurimah
azlan
viknesh
lesley
sandy
jasmine
dennis
jasper
jason
briana
charlene
aik kai
my fyp2 team blog
huiyan
dawnice
pei xin
joan
ted sis

Anyway, now I know why just now Kang Wei and I got stuck at Queenstown MRT. Someone jump down to MRT track at Clementi station and...

Aiyoh...why waste your life like that?????

Jump down, and don't care about your family members, cruel or not?

Anyway today's enterprise lesson is one of the most fun one!! Polo tee day today and also we have 2 new classmates to join the W24B big family, er..let me think...shit sia...forget the name...nvm I will tell you guys in the next post. But one nvr come....

Today UT siao loh....sian loh....what the loh....

Continue...emm...Mr Sim, I didn't know you got such a talent, say Grace's belly button la...ti ko sia!! Haha....

Anyway whole class having frenzy, from the jokes we say, videos we viewed, actions made to pictures used in powerpoint presentation, I can say, Fun DAY!!! = )

Above is the picture our class took together la...

After lesson, went to PC with Kang Wei and do evening gongyo and then...makan, and then...why la...MRT disruption...

Dennis end up wait till siao at JE station. Paiseh...

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I sms her when I was on the train. I guess I can no longer bluff anymore. Sooner or later, she will know.

So, as I told Wistera I will be as strong as a metal, emm...I guess I rather pluck out my courage, tell her the truth.

Though she never reply, but I hope she will receives it and reads it....

No matter how, I will still never give up....and you will always be my "brother"....my cheerful tomato, the Beautiful smile....

I hope you won't be angry, but if you want to punish me, go ahead....I deserved to...

Emm...emm...emmm....I dunno wat to say now....


Testing whether this post can appear or not...


Indeed, signs are showing...So is it time...I take a step back...

Or...?

But no matter what....She will still be my "bro" and I will always be there for her one...


I just feel like shouting now....ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.....

What happened to me? What happened to the usual Randy? What happened?....

I can no longer smile, I can no longer be happy, I am just like living in a world of...arrrrr...

And I really feel very bad, living in a state of guilty....

I really don't want...but now I know the harm I did to her...

Really sorry to you, I didn't mean to lie to you, but just that I don't want you to know the truth and our friendship, "brothership" be spoilt...

But I can see you are ignoring me...and me living in a stupid state now...

I regretted everything I did....sorry...

You want to punish me in any ways....I am ok with it...

Most important, is that, you are happy.. = )

I miss you, I like you and my feeling towards you will never change. I will always be there for you...and hope you will give me a chance....



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Oh yah...sad sia...tdy cannot upload pics but I shall use words to describe what happened today.

Today, hey, really same group as Shamala aka Pinkky!! Yeah!!.... Then still got same group with my hao xiong di, Yu Lin, Rohaizzatd and Dhivya. Today culture have to groom talent from our group to become singer/group and how are we going to market them. So we decided to groom ourselves...hee3!! = )

Mel's team damn funny sia, perform Paris Hilton song. Patrick perform his own singing. Shu Yuan also did own singing then my team, Pinkky become lead dancer for the 1st video and 2nd video I become the driver...haha!!

Overall, FUN!!

Then after school rush down to IMM for S.H.E autograph session. Damn tiring, 2045 got autograph...hee3....happy though....but can see Chai Lei she damn tired. But me ALSO lei!!

Today saw her nick. No more smile, now its light and etc....

Joanna ask me today whether I got tell her or not....but my reply was...No...

Perhaps I am not ready to tell yet...

Monday Polo Tee for W24B...and me treasurer gotta collect money liao...cause...countdown 3 more days...


The "big brother" of W24B....

Hey..Siti...Haha...I always enjoy working with her cause she very helpful!!

Rohaizzatd...what happen to you again??

Arrr....october!! Grace...I envy you lei...haha...oh yah..what happen to Samantha la?..Blur liaox...

Again....Rohaizzatd
These 2 gals....make fun of the sleeper

W24B charlie angels....haha
Where's your gun gals?? Fake one?....october also can become weapon la...power sia....haha = )

Above are pictures which I took today. My class, haha, those toilet gals are simply frenzy especially that Grace, Samantha and Shamala. Oh yah, Grace's october(pig) damn cute sia!! Still can have squezzy sound one....haha!

I went to develop some photos today during break and also, back with me ice cream. But, by the time people want to eat, melt like siao liao...NVM...

Today morning, wore shirt upside down until my mother told me about it. 157 was damn squeezy until Bt Batok West Ave 3. MRT was ok. Reached school early. But maths lesson, aiyoh, I know nuts lei....cham la...

And now, I just realise some things. Some things meant to be yours, it will be yours. Some things not meant to be yours means it is destined you will not get it.

So I guess....I just have an option...Forget It...and slowly, I will just lead...normally...and try to be a Stay Happy person!! = )

Painful, but...perhaps no choice...

I know some of my friends will sae, wah lao, wasted....but...time being, I made this decision...for the time being...is to minimise any further pain on me...and....

Sorry for yesterday....I guess as a friend and a "brother", I did something stupid that you told me not to getupyournerve....

But even you won't see it, I will still like to say, I like you because to me, you are the special one. You possess the Beautiful smile. You are the cheerful tomato. You are willing to be my listening ear whenever I met such a big problem.

But I am sorry that I bluff you that, I like Joanna....because I don't want you to know I like you.

But...again...I guess it is time I say it to you....

It is wrong for my doings...it is wrong for me to bluff you and make use of Joanna's name...I know I am stupid but because...

I really don't want to give up on you, I will wait for you, I am willing to be with you whenever you have probs....And I always willing to be there for you....

But...again, saw you so angry yesterday....I really want to blame myself...

Perhaps to you, it is justanotherstory by me...but I won't bluff my heart that I like you....because I know one day, I will still have to tell you...

I know you say, you have attitude prob or low self esteem or dare not take photos...but what I want to do yesterday is just boost your confidence, overcome your fear of taking pics....

Perhaps we know each other as brother too well....I didn't know one day, I will do stupid thing on you...

You can beat, you can scold, you can insult...me....

But I still hope you will be happy...that's all....

Suaybility falls on me today. Morning leave home late, kanna LKK 187 bus, late for lesson, hungry during lesson, sleep during 3rd meeting, failed to....

Go home still kanna LKK 187, I felt like a disabled person in heart...

Devastated Bomb...Why u land on me lei?....

(Oh yah, acknowledge the W24B pics posted a few days back, the one with big W24B word is done by Grace, not Xue Ying....sorry...)

Tats all for today.


After a bottle of Hooch last night, everything seems to be...I don't know. I am just like in the world of confusion, sadness when a dissapointing matter arrives on me, missing etc...

I just felt so lost when I woke up today. Don't know what to do, missing the happy me, asking myself me? What I am doing?....

Is it because of the Beginning, which has started and I don't know what's the next step?

Or is it because I did a grave mistake that I don't know how to admit it?....

Or??.................


Today lesson ends around 12. Then 3 team of 7, 1st time sia!!...Argh..I tdy missed everything(but Elaine and Sylvia also miss)....Sian loh...

Anyway I went to the bank at the morning, change to signature card plus a debit card(get for fun oni la), then duck mee, then Dennis house internet for a while, then ICA building(dennis extend passport), then Bugis, then Woodlands MRT, then RPC, then S'pore Mint, then, Clementi and back home...

A lot of then loh...haha...paiseh...

Wah....but what I heard tat lj faci is going to be our permanent one...oh my goodness!!

Looks like...I going to pon more...but not now anymore...I am reserving till last 2 wks.

I envy u all lei...W24Beepies!!....tdy so fast end lesson. NVM, anyway wish W24Beepies UT gd luck la!!


That's me for the past weekend. Today should be attending Student activity, yet lazy...cannot wake up...Yesterday slacking at house, do nothing. Now lei...still slacking, still deciding to go school or not.

If I go to school, cause new faci, dunno wat will happen

If I don't go, I need to find a place to hide lei...

Aiyoh...the price of Lazy...


This cake is for Patrick's 19th birthday.

Mr Patrick making his 19th birthday wish.


Mr Anoop. He uses the same brand of laptop as me, which means if I forget to bring my charger, I can borrow his one...gd.

My classmate, Best Partnership, Siti and Xue Fang.

Better call the Hougang Chalet when you saw this person...She's mad...

I am busy with RJ...While others are having fun.


This is what happens to the cake after cutting it. Cutter, Mr Patrick.

Oink Oink, My classmate, Grace.

The three Siao Gals...Shamala, Melissa and Samantha...

Fifa Pro, Mr Yu Lin

The maid and the owner.

My classmate, Rohaizzatd, Famous Sleeper.

Me with Patrick
The masterpiece of Shamala's and Anoop's Hand...

W24B!!
Hey...This pic is edited by Xue Ying...My classmate

W24B Blackies Day!!

My slippers!! Nice? But the feet is Oink Oink and Samantha's one....haha....u can see their feet so small...(but even Auntie Sok say this slippers too big for me, Subha wear father's short, I wear my father's slippers...)

It has been a few days since I last updated...haha...

Anyway, yesterday celebrated Patrick's birthday. Damn fun!! = ) I took a video of it...but can't show you all until I upload till youtube..Yoz!!... And yesterday's module was...okok la...culture...no Yoga faci, come other faci.

Tuesday, maths about first digit. Emm..bit chim but luckily Paul saved my team's day. Me try to teach the other teams then somemore they all say I very gd, hee!! Humble humble...But that faci la....I think that day he a bit buay song. RJ question like want to shooto those gals...who...emm...er...make some "music"...

Monday, let me think, science module. The faci, aiyah...nothing to say...lesson...aiyah..hopeless..feel like drop this module but cannot....ARGH!!

Then fri enterprise, changed team. Now with Xue Ying(the one who always say she is fat, I dunno y..), Siti and Denna.(haha, now is 3 days same team with them) Accounting, wah seh...my brain got so rusty liao until momentum rise, then I begin to know bit more more...

The quiz really kills my brain...and my team's brain....But still I am lucky not in the same team with that mad guy of my class...phew!!

Can see Xue Ying stressed out for friday's lesson cause she last time F&N one....Hey!! Don't be stressed out lei...u stress I scared sia...(I always scared gals who stressed out...). Today forget to give you my secret recipe to prevent stressed out..(It is, Stay Happy !! = ))

Then after lesson go attend briefing about the Clean and Green week. A few of my classmates took part, including me. I didn't expect got some of W26P peeps and guess what, Jeh Ni, Li Ling(bit shocked), and that Jia Wen(Lazy bum till siao 1, say ur bed like diamond la, be careful I melt I use my ultra cuter to make you wake up!!) also took part. Hee hee, 3rd Nov collect t-shirt, 5 Nov plant tree. Somemore can see Mr Lee Hsien Loong, PM. Rare chance.

Oh yah, I guess you all know that the pictures are above....do enjoy it!!

Oink Oink!! Why never give credit to me la!! (Nvm, I am not petty 1, somemore I still use ur name la!!)

Next week S.H.E autograph session @ IMM, damn excited sia!! Later can shake hand with Selina, Hebe and Ella!! Haha...= )

Blogger....so lag...let me upload pics lei...

Ok, I shall end here liao....Hope this weekend will be a fun one. And wish my indian and malay frens happy deeparaya!!


Indeed, bit unlucky. Today went to the wrong classroom, UT dunno how to do, laptop cannot used with projector(but solved), dinner eat until too full(i dunno y, perhaps my stomach getting smaller, bad sign)...and I guess more to come later....

Today's science module, I really know nuts. I guess this sem, I am going to like, fluke every module. What happenend to the Randy of last sem?....Has he gone?....

Tml my whole class wearing black shirt, haha...= ) !! So, dunno what will happen tml....

Just hope tml will be a better day....


Ever since, Cs keep appearing in my grades for the 5 modules I taking, I somehow felt bit devasted. Perhaps because, I couldn't accept it. Last semester got quite a number of As and Bs. Now....

I guess, if to think of the good side, Cs are there to motivate me to work much more harder than last semester. So, I guess, I really gotta keep rolling, tell myself, emm....I can do it one!!

Yesterday lesson, enterprise. About marketing 3 products for a chocolate shop. They are opening a new store in Citylink Mall and we need to come out with a marketing plan. I can say, really thanks to my team again! They always help me a lot!! Thanks team 5!! = )

After school, went to look for my former W26Q classmates. Haha, ask them teach me how to fold stars cause....(cannot tell la...paiseh)

Then at night chiong karaoke, go Clementi Rd eat roti prata. After that, back home. Till now, I still bit tired.

During the night, somehow, I get to temperory away from problems and perhaps do some reflection of what I had done over the past 5 days....

I guess, I still need to improve a person....

That's all....


Yah, that's what happen today. If later you want to say me childish, you can say so but what I said is from my heart, my earnest words.

Today, after school, went to W1 with Ananth, Dennis and Subha. Later saw Cindy then had a chat with her. Ananth they all went off to Library first. Then when Mei Yee, then after that Yin Min and Sarah came over, I felt that I was isolated. I guess they don't really know my existence. So, I just go one side, make a phone call and just went off without saying good bye to them.

I guess, I tried too hard le....Frankly speaking, the best solution, either give up....or...don't care about them anymore....

Emm....don't think too much anymore.

Oh yah, my class I can see getting more fun. Emm...I tried to compile a contact and birthday list for W24B. Soon will be ready!!

Today, have to take taxi to school. $19. But because of 2 wrong turns. But luckily got discount end up $15. Anyway the taxi driver provides me good service!!

Cognitive module about Occam's Razor. Actually, to simply say, this concept is like to make things simpler but not to its simplest. Hee3...my team damn efficient lei!! I was away for a talk, which I was caught sleeping by Grace..sian diao...haha!!, then they manage to nearly complete ppt liaox....thanks lei!! Team 4, and paiseh cause I didn't do much for today's presenatation....

Okok, I guess I just end here. Hope tml will be a better day...


People says only Monday have blues, me got additional tuesday which is today. Bit bored during class. Not my usual self. Get tired easily. Easily bored but still can communicate with my classmates. Emm...I guess, I just hoping for a better day....

And now I just hope tml UT won be difficult, I am not intending to study at all though.

Today's maths lesson about fishing farm. It has something related to operating a fishing farm and its methods of running that can earn most profit.

So, again, my team, I really gotta salute them lei...everytime I not in good mood, they also can help me tide over the bored state.

I guess now I really begin to know, this on and off thingy, is sticking to the on switch, day by day. So is it time, to switch it off or just leave it. If I switch off, will I betray myself?

I guess I really need to think....



Emm...the above pic is taken a few days back. Really hope my class will be bonded!! Hee3!!

Today, I guess I got the monday blue. Everything seems bit bored, not in order today. Somemore today science module, I don't really understand much thing. Halfway through lessons, sleep. I guess I gotta overcome all obstacles and tell myself I can do it!! Just hope tml will be a better day...





Hey the pics above are a few days back where me and my W24B classmates went to taste free ice cream...

This weekend, slacking, boring... Yesterday night watch movie till 3am on laptop. Today morning went oko ceremony then meet KK. He went to buy Toshiba Fifa World Cup laptop, wah sei....made me like...But my LG has accompany me for 6 mths liaox...so she is my baby, not gonna leave her!!

Haha....

But actually I got some simple wish in my heart, 1st to go Tozan in a few year time, 2nd to see my present class W24B, my former class W26Q classmates, family and other friends to be happy and healthy, 3rd....er...this one cannot say la...will announce when it becomes reality.

K...tats all for this weekend


Wow, that's fast. I only start this blog like around 6 mths, and 100 posts liaox...

Anyway, today Enterprise about Tokyo Fashion Bizarre. Bit weird?...But anyway we have to focus on marketing strategies and plans. Emmm...as usual thx my team mates for giving me the support, especially Anoop!! He is the one who keeps encouraging me not to give up!!

Today after sch, it is CS time with Bryan and his classmate. Then take MRT go home...

Haha, then makan, go online liaox...till now...evening gongyo ltr must do liaox...

Anyway, happy birthday to Nana!!


That's me for today. Sleeping during lessons. Power? Haha, dunno la.

Anyway today culture mocule. Learnt the elements and principles of arts and also a lot of thing related to appreciating art pieces. Indeed, to understand a painting, it requires one to think out of the box. Not just by looking, we need to think in depth.

Later going to gym with Bryan, frankly speaking, I am bit tired now but must PERSERVERE!!

Yesterday night have fun with the W26P peeps! Play lantern, candles, fire crackers at Fu Shan Park. Then also got early celebrate Hui Min's birthday!

Hey Hui Min, treasure your 18 yrs old of age la!!




I can just say, today seems to be a happy day. W24B is getting more bonded, and this is a good news!! = )

Today maths lesson about Hack-A-Shaq. Something related to combinations, permunations and binomial distribution. Emm...I guess I really gotta revise what I learnt today to understand better!!

And, W24B peeps...(I don't care, I just use the words "peeps" *this is my blog lei...Auntie Sok can't stop me from using it la!), today have lunch together and we chatted a lot during lunch!! Cool!!

That pink girl Shamala is again mad today....I dunno when she will become sensible...haha!! Joking only, but she indeed play a part in W24B bonding!! And others too!!

Emm...oh yah, we also took pictures and hee3!!....Simply fun! Hope tml will be a better day loh!!


Today, monday. It blues right? Guess a bit loh. Today woke up late, leave home late. On the MRT saw my pri sch classmate Belinda but dare not call her. So...haha...chance wasted.

Anyway today Science module. As usual, Mr Tham is in his style. Flexible teaching method. I damn like it loh!! But he say he going to leave liaox...sobx!! Argh!! Mr Tham, W24B will miss you one!

Today, same team as last week. Our partnerships has been quite solid. But imagine a PPT 4mb plus. Haha, Denna was shocked though.

After lesson, imagine that Shamala again. Ask people join her for toilet and share cubicle...(i guess that one Mel add one...). Hee3 madness begins...

And a good news...emm..class bonding activity 1, tml lunch together 12PM, everyone chiong ppt la!!

Later, went to look for Bryan and Paul. Then later look for Dennis, Sok Hong, Subha and Joanna. Slack at cafe....

Then go home...

Then...just received an order from Auntie Sok (Sok Hong), I cannot used the word "peeps". Only former W26P and Ananth can used....

Wah Lao Lei....Sian diao loh.....

W24B....can help me fight the right or not?


Imagine when you want to spit out something onto the grass and land up in your bag and shirt or standing at the bus stop about to board the bus yet the bus captain ignores you and drove away. I should say, today seems to be quite a suay start for today.

But nevertheless, today's kosenrufu is quite a meaningful one. Also, a believer share his experience on how he face his crisis and how he overcome it. He said that, actually our suffering is nothing to Nichiren Daishonin's sufferings so actually when we met problems, we should not be saying that we don't know what to, actually treat it as an obstacle and tell yourself you can do it one!!

After chanting session, lunch with the other guys and gals then go Jurong Point with Dennis. Go home, out again for dinner. Duck rice.

Yesterday, I guess it is simple day. Just stay at home and play game watch drama.

Emm...that's all