Writing my own story. 我正在写自己的故事.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Ever Regretted?

Ever regretted what you had done? I guess everyone do have this feelings. Some may be lifetime ones, some may be short term ones.

Just now after Gongyo, I really wanted to use my laptop but my brother was still using it. So, we had a small argument again because he said he wanted to complete a quest for MUonline game.

Actually I was okay for him to play games but I want him to set himself a time limit. But as a elder brother, I did not show example to him at all as I always break promises...

Anyway, I always have to change for the better. Even I regret what I had done in the past, life still goes on.

So, for today, slightly better day. There are quite a number of classmates who did not attend today's science module. My team only got Samantha, Siti, Rohaizzatd and me myself. Topic? Glowing Romance. Yah, and the problem statement got Samantha's name and the whole class kept making fun of her. Haha!! But anyway, Samantha, your birthday is coming, don't be sad of us making fun of you la!! Smile Always!! = )

Lunch break go makan at Food Haven. Xue Ying saw her dream guy in the lift when the whole bunch of us were about to go back to our classroom. Then back at classroom, haha, I am bad. I kept making fun of Xue Ying. Then she shoot me back say about me...It was then, I thought of what I had done.

PPT, after making fun of Grace, the oink oink. This time round, pinkky!! Shamala. End up send her a pic of the slide which I made fun of her. Gals are like that...they want the evidence and then happy again...haha...joking only...

After lesson ended, the gals are back again with their photo taking frenzy. I will upload the pictures, perhaps by tomorrow.

To gym after lesson, to makan after gym, to Chinese Garden MRT then back home. Short nap, bath, watch MTV, gongyo, blogging.

As I watched MTV just now, I saw F.I.R Tian Tian Ye Ye MV. It touches my heart a lot as...it reminds me how love can be so beautiful.

And as my younger sister teaches me how to fold hearts using straws, my heart kept thinking back of the past...my failure in the love journey, the fear of failure, the beautiful moments with my friends and etc.

I thought I told myself that I will become a metal heart person. But it seems like the metal heart is melting. And reason being, I guess, feelings are getting back again.

What XY told me, it seems like feeling are getting back. Gosh, what to do? Me and her are brothers. And neither me or her would want to jeopardise our brothership. If I am going to jeopardise it again, am I doing the right thing? Am I self in this way? But for the sake of love, is it worth it? Whether she is giving me a chance, is there a possibility?

As I thought of these, I felt so confused. This is the first time, I met this kind of situation.

But frankly speaking, feelings towards her seems to be strong again. Just like the first time I had feelings towards her.

Anyway, yesterday was a bad day for me. Tired, mood swing. I wasn't myself yesterday for enterprise module. Luckily, my team members, Jessika, Denna, Xue Ying and Siti and my classmates help me to tide over the bad day. Thanks you guys, W24B peepies!!

Sunday, clean and green week. Really a hectic but fun day. That Shamala was like moaning when she was planting. Haha!!

After planting, went to go around the campus with my classmates. Then went to Far East with Elaine, Xue Ying and Elaine's friend, Sui Qi. Walk Far East whole day sia...first time...But anyway, I begin to realise what gals like...emm...is that useful for me? Haha....

Later go home, gotta take the North-South Line back home with that "Extra"...haha..

But something bad happened that day, HP lost...My heart pain...Because this HP follows me throughout the journey with W26Q...now, no more...

I guess better not think too much.

But I would like to say thanks to Xue Ying's vitasoy...hehe...thx for treating me...

Oh yah, pictures I will upload in the next post or the next next. But I will confirm upload one....Sorry guys and gals!

Emm. I guess I just end here. Hope tomorrow will be a better day.