....Perhaps Life Is Simply Too Complex....

3 months later.....

2011-06-23T16:25:00.002+08:00

I feel like writing something on here even though no one would be looking though.....

Back from Tozan, the experience was great and it refreshes me again.

Saw Dai-Gohonzon, told everything what I wanted to say. Also pray for Wan Fern, pray for wisdom and courage to overcome problems, shakubuku Huiyan (Which I always wanted, because I really don't want her to continue following the wrong doctrine), Joan (that's my hope) and Timothy(I hope to bring him back to temple), and much more.

Visited temples like Shinomi-bo, Myoren-ji, and other places like 12 sided temple, the stone where Nikko Shonin preaches the law, 5 storey pagoda and etc....

While there are times we are praying gratitude and practice, there is also enjoy time like in Aeon Jusco Narita and visited the Narita City....

It was tired but it is all worth it.....regardless of problems faced.

Back again, recharged. This Tozan Spirit will be infused into my soul......

2011-03-07T01:25:00.002+08:00

Just watched I am Number 4 just now, it has a normal plot. Rating? I think I give it a 3.5.

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I just saw my friend's blog. It is definitely saddening to see her relationship came to an end. I knew she puts in 100 percent into her r/s. Yet, things happened.

I just hope she will pull herself up again and I will try to pray for her.

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I really have to thank Eileen for helping me to fork out additional $200 for the Tozan airfare. Initially, due to JAL's cheaper price, I requested out from SQ's flight.

I called her earlier on, she said she treat it as a gokuyo to Gohonzon.

To me, this is a benefit from Gohonzon.

Its gonna be a very hard ride towards Tozan. I know I have to be stronger be it in faith, practice etc.

Its hard, but I have to do it.

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2011!

2011-01-01T00:08:00.002+08:00

So 2011 just arrived. Any resolution for myself?

The list, subject to changes.

1) Buck up my practice/study/faith in my religion. Hmm, if time permits, I would like to help up more in my religion group.

2) Really hope to go to tozan. But I need to sort out my "heart" first.

3) Nah, 6 more freaking months towards ORD. I need to do my job finish sui sui then can ORD with peace mah!

4) Hmm, if can ah, buy a Korean language book and learn KOREAN DIY!

5) Hopefully can enrol into SIM-RMIT business marketing course, which means I need to prep myself up.

6) Monitor expenses and must have some savings le la!

Temp.....6 resolutions.

2010-12-28T03:22:00.002+08:00

It's been a month plus since my last post.

Back from Kenshu, tiring but a nice break and experience. Somehow it also allows me to reflect on myself.....

(Anyway, the theme was "What is my faith")

So, more works need to be done by myself. Constant practice and building on strong faith. I guess this is the only way to save myself.

I always thought of writing a story on this blog. I did it before, but the ending wasn't good.

Maybe I shall think of an idea again....

Somehow for the past few days, feelings towards her....getting stronger? Especially after the weekends....

Is she really the girl whom I like? I really don't know.

When life sucks

2010-11-20T04:36:00.001+08:00

You just gotta accept it.

Weird...but somehow

2010-11-20T04:33:00.000+08:00

Feelings towards this abandoned blog....makes me feel like writing again.

I knew perhaps....no one might be reading it. But, I will use it as a platform to write....

till the day I leave this world, I guess.

368

2010-03-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

问题是该面对的，而不是逃避。。。。。

367

2010-02-28T01:41:00.000+08:00

奋不顾身

366.

2010-02-20T04:50:00.000+08:00

Life is always adventurous.....

365.

2010-02-16T22:30:00.002+08:00

Firstly, I would like to say thank you for being my listening ear.....

I have indeed really pluck up my courage to confess everything to you.

I really thank you for willing to listen to everything and being understanding.

No matter what, you will always be my jie.....

(There's one thing you ask me to quit, I must....TRY AH.)

My tooth is killing me.

2010-02-11T02:22:00.001+08:00

things are getting worse for me

363....

2010-01-25T21:42:00.002+08:00

2010 has past 25 days le, what I just hope, or my resolutions are:

1) Stop being over arrogant, petty

2) Be more humble

3) Hear other people's comment about me and see where can I change for the better.....

4) Improve my practice and faith and study in Nichiren Daishonin's Buddhism

5) ???

That's all. I guess.

362

2010-01-24T20:12:00.000+08:00

我不是你想像那么勇敢

361

2010-01-22T23:57:00.000+08:00

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢

伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗

我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来

若那一刻重来我不哭

让他知道我可以很好

360.

2010-01-17T06:13:00.000+08:00

I screwed myself up yesterday. Guess, my emotion was mixing up.....

心酸

2010-01-14T22:37:00.001+08:00

接下来的路会不好走。。。

What happened to me?

2010-01-10T08:40:00.001+08:00

I am still figuring out....am I over stressed?

357.

2009-12-31T19:55:00.001+08:00

在黑暗的房间里。。。。

那沉默的感觉。。。。

Indeed.

2009-12-31T02:15:00.002+08:00

I am no longer my true self.

How am I going to face myself, it is still yet a question...

Life still goes on...

Whether I can be my true self again, I shall not ponder it anymore.

2009 is ending le, 2010 will be a challenging year....

Work commitment will keep me busy. Guess then, I might be able to find back myself on the pathway again.

I guess....

2009-12-26T03:50:00.001+08:00

I am no longer my true self.

Painful one.

2009-12-19T10:07:00.000+08:00

What am I thinking in my mind and heart? It is simply so painful.

All the weird ones.

2009-12-15T22:42:00.001+08:00

I guess, I am away from reality.

All the weird ones.

2009-12-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

I guess, I am away from reality.

Have I...

2009-12-13T14:13:00.000+08:00

ever wonder....why things just become reality.

Do you know?

2009-12-05T01:51:00.000+08:00

Actually there are people cleaning bus stops at night....

Untitled.

2009-11-29T16:21:00.001+08:00

Don't ask me why...

Jan 10

2009-11-17T23:53:00.001+08:00

Should I go back or not?

MIA

2009-11-15T14:50:00.001+08:00

I guess its been quite long since I last updated.

Hmm, ytd went out with Pei Xin, Aiden, Poh Hong and Xavier. Had dinner at Cafe Cartel. We got free caesar salad....aha. Kudos to Capitacard.

In less than 5 hours or so, gotta go back camp le, sian. But looking forward for my wisdom tooth surgery!

Screwed up.

2009-10-26T20:47:00.001+08:00

In life, you will tend to screw up things, either purposely, unexpectedly or.....????

Why? I don't know about it.

I hope...

2009-10-21T13:47:00.001+08:00

my MP3 player plan can be launched successfully....hehe. Wondering if my father is willing to loan $200 or not...hehe.

Within less than 5 hrs...

2009-10-19T16:16:00.002+08:00

I must make myself back to Sungei Gedong. Haiz....

Recently, I realised I like this song called Chocolate Love. Hmm, below are the youtube video.

I guess...I should save some money to buy LG Chocolate...aha.

More works coming in on Tuesday. Gotta wait till Friday for another book out. NVM, its okay, life still goes on. This NS liability, I would rather tahan now then enlist later and ORD later.

Do you think...

2009-10-19T00:35:00.002+08:00

having a off day is good for you, but ended up when u report back, u got work to do again?

Sometimes in life...

2009-10-15T18:02:00.001+08:00

You will see unexpected things.

1 great example happened just now.

I think the RSM will be fuming now....aha. OB!

Ups and downs...

2009-10-15T12:41:00.001+08:00

you will always see it in your life.

Sometimes...

2009-10-09T21:43:00.001+08:00

Things just don't go right for you...

Sometimes, ur dreams can be so cocked up...u will ask yourself why you had that dream.

Or even sometimes, you gotta ask yourself.....why are you simply like yourself...

When you realise...

2009-10-05T10:35:00.001+08:00

Things gets screwed up....it's time to take a rest and reflect?

A mental suffering...

2009-09-27T17:37:00.000+08:00

is never easy to overcome.

It's gonna be tough

2009-09-26T22:24:00.002+08:00

to learn about something which I have been believing for 6 yrs.

but to know more, I must have the hunger spirit, seek to research, understanding to know about it.

It will be tough, but I have to do it for the sake to know where am I going.....

Waiting for Friday...

2009-09-14T10:11:00.000+08:00

To rest...

SLEEPY!

2009-09-05T06:08:00.001+08:00

But I had a good sleep. HAHA!

Back strain, diarrhoea

2009-08-30T19:09:00.000+08:00

I wonder, should I go to NUH now or still go back to camp...

Personality Test.

2009-08-30T03:04:00.003+08:00

HAHA. I too bo liao le ah, ended up going to Aik Kai's blog and click on this website and took the test...

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
HAHA! Am I a good problem solver? I doubt so leh...

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
OOPS! Quite true...

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
Eh, this one ma...

The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Eh, I think I gotta agree with that...

Your views on education:You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
HAHA! Thought of furthering my studies...but if can take those fun course, I don't mind!

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
Hehe, I wondering what type of job I can find ah.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
HAHA! I agree a............bit ah.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Hmm, true.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
I think I am quite a rubbish person leh!

Vennon's 21st Bday!

2009-08-30T02:42:00.002+08:00

Gotta wish him Happy 21st Bday in my blog!

It was held 2 days back....did have lots of catch up and fun in the party...aha!

Booking in soon. Haiz. Busy life to resume....

The NDP weekends...

2009-08-10T16:03:00.000+08:00

Hmm, basically during the weekends :

Friday : Watched G.I. Joe with Aik Kai and Dennis. Roti Prata @ Clementi Rd...
Sat : Went to watched The Murderer with Joan, Pei Xin, Huiyan, Melvin and Ryan. After that makan at Food Opera....
Sun : Went for Oko, then Safra Jurong with Fang2, Clarence and Wei Chuan. At night...end up doing army duties. Haiz.

Today (Mon) : BOOK IN!!! WT...

Life has been ups and downs. Never easy. I am going to be super busy with NDP 2010 jobs....haiz.

If life is very smooth sailing

2009-07-16T21:20:00.000+08:00

Then I shall say a big no.

In less than 24 hours....

2009-06-11T23:50:00.001+08:00

I shall be leaving my comfort world to serve National Service.

I do look forward to finish 2 yrs of service but somehow will definitely miss my family members, friends, buddies and sisters as I am unable to go home for the 1st 2 weeks.

Tomorrow 1130 hrs, I shall report to BMTC2 at Pulau Tekong. Hope the experience will be a great one.

Gongyo still must do ah, no choice.

....and...hope she is still living happily : )

END HERE. Shall be back in 2 weeks time.

Botak soon.

2009-06-09T15:17:00.000+08:00

The title speaks everything.

Off to Penang

2009-06-02T23:15:00.000+08:00

Be Back on SAT! : )

1 more week to Penang trip. 2 more weeks to NS!

2009-05-29T01:26:00.000+08:00

The title says everything.

Work till...

2009-05-15T19:52:00.001+08:00

Tired? Fall sick. HAHA!

Yah, but I also saw many of my sec sch friends.

Yeah, I am working for NP Co-op, past Mon - Wed at Co-op shop. Ytd and tdy at convention centre.

Hmm, is it the best job in the world? Guess so, slack, free food. HEHE.

@ Hong Ming's BD Party

2009-05-07T00:39:00.002+08:00

Damn, I am bit seh. JD mix with coke, Tiger Beer, Carlsberg.

HAHA! Luckily sharing cab with Aik Kai.

Hmm, the party was quite fun. With the nice music. HAHA!

I ENJOYED!

HAHA! Some pics....from my Japan trip.

2009-05-03T21:16:00.004+08:00

Back!

2009-04-21T14:57:00.002+08:00

The experience was great. And very grateful that Gohonzon is so compassionate. When seeing the Dai-gohonzon at Hoando, I felt as if I am back to my mother.

How to say, some things are simply cannot describe. You have to experience it by yourself.

Eh, this time tozan, there are also lots of funny things happen, like "the men's dirty jokes, comparison of snoring, complants of aunties and much more."

I will try to post some pictures and let it do the talkings.

End here.

1 day. To be exact.

2009-04-15T03:20:00.002+08:00

Yeah. 1 day left and I am off from the sunny island for 5 days.

Have yet to pack finish everything, gotta chop chop le. HAHA!

Just saw my friend's blog, she seems to be lost in her life.
Sometimes, I am someone who don't know to encourage people in person, thus, I just pray for her, hope she will lead a better life.

Maybe some words of encouragement to her ba, just be yourself. Act according to situation and be positive! : )

K, gotta end here ba.

Appreciate.

2009-04-08T04:26:00.003+08:00

Appreciate everything that you have. To put it in a nice way, it is better to give up certain things and treasure the good ones.

Graduated!

2009-04-08T04:26:00.001+08:00

Phew. Finally graduated. HAHA!

Wonder girls and babies! HAHA!

2009-04-05T01:18:00.003+08:00

To be frank, recently I like Wonder Girls a lot ah, but I found out oso got Wonder Babies, soooo the cute.

Just came back frm Xin Nee's birthday party....hehe. Got Jay Chou cake and lotsa BBQ food. There's Vodka too! HAHA!

I drank a bit, now bit seh. But still okay!

Anyway enjoy the videos I uploaded! : )

11 more days countdown to Tozan. No matter what I still must chant cause money is not everything, who knows I might still unable to go to Tozan. So...no matter what, faith and practice still impt!

End here though, enjoy the video!

Counting down....

2009-03-30T04:14:00.002+08:00

2 weeks and 3 days.

Off to Japan...

Waited for 5 and a half years. Finally, able to save up some money + some from my father to go for Tozan.

Hmm, have yet to prepare packing but soon. Have to borrow winter clothes from friends, prepare changing Yen and much more.

Many hours back, my sis Joan say she want to buy a oven for her practice for F and N.

Wonder should I buy for her? HAHA!

Often...

2009-03-26T22:21:00.002+08:00

You thought you are the best. Yet, often, you are wrecking everything that is so nicely placed.

You thought you are the best. Yet, often, it is just your illusions.

You thought everything is perfect. Yet, often, things are simply inperfect.

You thought she is the one. Yet, often, she is always not the one.

You thought things will change for the better. Yet, often.....things gets for the worst instead.

I.

Often....

Have....

The....

arrogance thinking ba.

Ended up, wrecking everything that is nicely placed.

As the time comes nearer...

2009-03-15T20:26:00.001+08:00

I am bit worried...whether I can save up money to go to Tozan or not...

太阳

2009-03-06T23:03:00.002+08:00

最近，我突然喜欢这首歌。

Happy Birthday to Melvin!

2009-03-03T13:28:00.004+08:00

Cheers to the max! And then...its indian poker and drunking drunking!

Group pic! Steamboat with Jon, Ryan, Melvin (birthday boy), Sam, Huiyan, Xin Nee and Pei Xin!

HAHAHA!

Chivas, steamboat, and loads of fun.

That's what happened on last Friday.

黑白

2009-03-03T13:14:00.002+08:00

你那白的裙摆

你那黑的刘海

你那美丽的笑容

永远留在我的心里。。。

Pink Panther 2

2009-03-01T02:44:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night, I went to watch Pink Panther 2 with Joan. Hmm, not bad ah. Quite a funny movie. Now tempting to watch part 1.

Haiz. Still jobless. How sia.

Officially graduating!

2009-02-26T19:33:00.001+08:00

Phew, finally, after waiting for so long, I am officially graduating from RP!

Now only hope to get my cert on Apr 8 and meantime, STA prom night! HAHA!

I just want to be honest. Part 2.

2009-02-19T22:52:00.002+08:00

I decided, to go for a holiday trip. To forget everything.

I took a long leave from work and went to book a travel package to Tokyo.

Hoping, when I am away from this sunny island, I can start everything afresh.

I just want to be honest.

2009-02-18T01:55:00.002+08:00

Actually for the past 1 month, I had a gf. Though she is not perfect, but she tried to be a good gf.

It is me, whom I never treasure her.

I initiated a break up.

Feeling bit pain, yet I don't want to make her suffer anymore because I don't think I can be a good bf.

In my heart, it is messy now.....

Hatred, sadness, confusion....

These 3 words described my heart best now.

HAPPY CNY!!

2009-01-27T23:24:00.001+08:00

Wish everyone have a happy niu yr!

Yu Sheng...

2009-01-25T01:31:00.002+08:00

Hmm, ever since the CNY festival is coming, I always look forward to eat yu sheng. HAHA!

Yah, I "am graduating" from RP!! Hope I can "stay"...diaoz...

Nothing much to update, maybe will post some photos....aha!

End.

Diaosation...

2009-01-15T02:09:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, lame thinkings are created in my mind.

I wonder, should I have more of these or not....

I have to remember......

2009-01-13T23:07:00.000+08:00

the date....130109! aha!

Honesty.

2009-01-13T13:36:00.000+08:00

The heading speaks everything.

Things happening around me.

2009-01-13T11:54:00.001+08:00

Sometimes :

It is good to reflect upon yourself.

Sometimes :

It is good to sacrifice something for the better.

Sometimes :

The one you loved is actually near you.

Sometimes :

You don't know what happened to you tomorrow.

Gohonzon's Power....

2009-01-08T17:30:00.002+08:00

I guess Gohonzon's power...is simply mystic. Just by chanting Nam-myoho-renge-kyo, you will definitely have the wisdom and courage to overcome all your obstacles...

Just by trying by putting 2 palms together and face east and chant, you will definitely feel the difference....

Why for the sake of Why

2009-01-03T01:04:00.001+08:00

"Stupid lame post"

So why do you ask me when you know why.

So Why ask when you know why.

When you know why, don't ask why.

Because asking why too much will ended up making your mind with so many "why".

So many "why" isn't good for your mind because it makes your brain to think so much "why".

So ended up stuffing too much "why" makes your brain cuckoo, and why?

Because I don't know why.....

Last Post for 2008

2008-12-31T21:11:00.001+08:00

Here to wish everyone happy new year!

2008 has been a year, lots of ups and downs....

2009, hope it will be another year, full of challenges...

: )

說好的幸福呢

2008-12-24T03:41:00.003+08:00

说好的幸福，虽然没了。。。

但生活还是要过下去。

Be nice to others

2008-12-12T01:26:00.002+08:00

...and others will be nice to you too!

Today's lesson looks dry, but with Jimmy taking 19 custards to classroom and all the rubbish thingy happened, today's class is quite happening ah!

Hmm, waiting for SAT! New phone coming : )

(reh gnissim i ma)....

Pork Chop

2008-12-09T22:38:00.003+08:00

Looks yummy!
QUEEN! Aha.

Just now for dinner, my sister and I went to the nearby food centre.

We had western food, and I can say spending $4.80 is worthwhile. The pork chop taste yummy and the serving is not bad too.

Hmm.... and just now my sister bought for me Queen magazine...aha. This edition got S.H.E. HAHA!

I dunno y I begin to like the TV series, now the magazine....am I?

累了. I am tired.

2008-11-21T23:16:00.000+08:00

The headings speaks everything.

Flashmadness.

2008-11-21T18:19:00.001+08:00

Today's problem statement really gave me a wake up call. I better learn how to use at least 2 or 3 Adobe's softwares.

And my grades.... I got a scolding from Pei Xin already. Actually I think she scold also for my own good.

Yah, on the risk of retaking next sem but I don't care anymore, just whack and attend lessons and UTs.

That's life for now.

做我自己

2008-11-14T09:03:00.001+08:00

我绝不可以忘记我还是要做自己。

问题一定会永远找我的。

但，我还是我自己。

Getting Busy.

2008-11-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

Aha, back to use English le.

It's been quite busy recently.

Now in Student Kenshu committee. But I like, haven't contribute much.

FYP met some probs, gonna really help my team up and hope we can finish everything asap!

Working has been, ahem. Slacking...aha!

Smoking? Yah, bit hard core but better controlled.

Napfa coming soon. Gonna train hard le. No time.

K, end here ba.

FYP 到好忙啊！

2008-10-30T17:14:00.002+08:00

这几天为了FYP 而忙到。。。氦！

大家都辛苦了！对不起team mates, 因为我，常常都有NG... Sorry!

现在只是希望可以快点拍完整个film！

多一下下，要回去Bt Panjang 拍。。。好累！

假期到了！

2008-10-26T19:30:00.002+08:00

等了这么久，假期终于到了！

说到假期，自是短短的一个礼拜，氦。。。

假期时，就要忙 FYP 了。我的组终于走到这么远了。我也为整组开心。

当然，我还是要做好我的本分。身为 cameramen, I still got bit, no, 是很多压力！ARRGH!

昨晚，我陪我的全家人和Robert 吃 Fish and Co. 我和弟弟叫 Seafood Platter For 2. 差一点吃不完。。。 HAHA！

Robert 也有教我一些， how to win a girl's heart tips...

但我。。。氦。别说了吧。

有点累了

2008-10-25T13:37:00.002+08:00

很久没有update部落格了。

最近觉得很累，也许是因为FYP，做工等等。

干才弟弟从boys hostel 放。为他开心，因为可以和他谈天说地。HAHA！

难免心里有一点累。心里很乱。因为。。。。。

Suddenly

2008-09-25T22:53:00.002+08:00

Hmm. Actually I have been thinking what to update. That's one of the reason why I took so long to update.

Just to know, Lee Mei is leaving tomorrow morning.

In my heart, I feel a bit sad. A big sister is leaving me and my bro. She has been concerning for us for so many years. Sigh.

No matter what, tomorrow I will send her off at Changi.

S.H.E album released! All the songs super solid! Hehe!

Hmm. Dunno wat to update yet, stop here 1st.

Office job looks easy...but....

2008-09-16T14:53:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO FAR!! 19 le...1 more yr to 20 ah! : )

Sigh. These few days has been quite tired. i think because of myself ba.

Last Sat, before I left home for work, my sister, Joan, gave me a toy bus! HAHA! (Shall upload pic ltr). It was the one I saw with her few days back. HAHA! Thanks!

Sunday night went to have ramen dinner with my colleagues. It is at the basement of Bugis Junction. Eh....so so ah. $12.90 for set meal, I still think a bit not worth.

Yesterday, suppose to go to school, ended up me....skipped school again. Aiyoh. Machiam Friday already pon, then Monday also pon, power sia. Time to reserve....

Now, I am at my auntie's office. Yah, I replacing my elder sis as a so called part time staff. Hehe. Got a laptop to use sia...hehe! Can go MSN also...HAHA! But work still need to do ah.

Filing isn't easy. I do until my whole mind confuse sia...

Hope next week I can get used to it ba. Later still need to go back to school for FYP meeting, story haven't write finish...gosh!....HOW AH????

I have no choice...

2008-09-12T01:34:00.004+08:00

But to really put up my honest feelings:

If you are saying you are bad, please take back your words.

I am the devil, you are not.

I am the root of the cause, definitely not you.

Because of my selfish attitude and my stubborness of not changing, I caused a lot of unhappiness.

And in the clique, you all deserve to outcast me. I deserve it.

I always say I want to change, I have yet.

I am stupid and have all kinds of wishful thinkings.

I know we are always arguing over small matters and...

the rumours are getting out of hand.

I have nothing much to say le...but...to say....sorry.

I also hope you can reflect upon yourself...because you too have your flaws.

And for any ppl who see this, I really hope, please stop talking about the rumour.

Both of us had enough of this rumour, its damn FXXXIng enough le....

Thanks.

FXXXing expensive fried rice.

2008-09-12T01:22:00.007+08:00

FXXXing expensive fried rice.

Firstly, for this blog post, I shall comment on the fried rice. 5 bucks. Will you believe it?

Nvm, that is going to be my 1st and last time eating this fried rice. Lousy piece of XXXX.

On Tuesday, I went to school for FYP meeting. 12 noon plus makan with some DSA peeps. 4 plus FYP meeting. We finally come out with a FINAL IDEA, Social issue and we are working towards it. Hehe.

Then after meeting, it was DINNER TIME! Gotta thanks my team mates, Xavier, Pei Xin and Aiden for treating me Ajisen Ramen and Gelare waffles. Thanks for celebrating my birthday! I appreciate it a lot! : )

Thu, after lesson stayed back for a while with Pei Xin. We discussed a bit on writing story for our FYP.

But end up, we were looking at my younger sis's pics. She say my younger sis cute! Hehe. Eh, I also think so too.

I met my younger sis, Joan for dinner and catch 12 Lotus at GV Jurong Point. The movie was a bit soapy but acceptable ah. I still enjoy it.

Thinking of Friday got school, I really sian 1/2 liao. Sigh.

I am not myself anymore.

2008-09-09T13:30:00.002+08:00

Continue from previous post, I realise

I am not myself anymore.

But it was lucky, I found out what happened to me.

Arrogant, selfish, not being sensitive enough, low eq, easily emo, etc etc...

That's isn't me in the past.

Obstacles often fall upon, sometime small sometimes big.

I have to keep asking myself and refer to people's comment on me, especially those on my tagboard.

That mysterious person, do hope to really see you in person but I will have to take in your comments seriously because I really want to prove to you, I want to change for the better.

And the good medicine which I have been taking for 5 years, I realise I depend it too much.

I did not strike a balance at all, thus thinking the medicine would provide me with a life that will not have problems at all.

WRONG! I was wrong at all times.

Thus, I need to sit down, reflect on what happen to me, share with my friends and see how can I change. I myself also have to really push myself to change.

To me, I am just like a tree. I want to see others living peacefully and happily. Then that's enough for me le.

20 le, wat to do next?

2008-09-09T13:25:00.002+08:00

It's been a bit too long since I last updated.

So what happened to me from the last update which is 26 Aug:

1) I worked in the Comex 2008 at Suntec. This time round got Mindy, Bryan, Wei CHuan, Aik Kai and Kang Wei to join me. But....I think because of location of booth, yah, you all should be able to guess what happened le.

2) FYP meetings. So far so good. But my team of funky and creative peeps might change from horror short film to some heart touching? While, we are still thinking of next step and hope it will be a good one!

3) Birthday! HAHA! Anyway gotta thank all the peeps for wishing me happy birthday ah! Thanks! Yesterday after school, I went out with my clique members, Dennis, Yunting, Jun Long and Hui Yan. We had Thai cuisine for dinner and Breadtalk's mango cake. Hehe! Nice one. They also gave me some presents which I really appreciated it. Thanks. But yesterday, I was bit emo and ahem did something which I not suppose to do. Sorry cliques....

Sigh. 20 le, what to do next?

Actually I realise recently....

Dead Pixels...

2008-08-26T02:37:00.002+08:00

"If you are fated with something, then you are simply being fated."

Sigh, not so zhun ah...I am so fated with dead pixel.

It all goes back to yesterday. I did 2 checklist. The first one is a replacement set, from 1 dead pixel to 2! Ended up customer have to wait till another week for her replacement. Ke lian her ah cause she thought can use her laptop le.

Another one, newly bought. Dead pixel. No choice, have to wait for another week.

Actually, working at NTU is quite okay ah. Get to know a lot of people.... And the job is quite okay ah.

But now I am in a dillema. Should I, work for Comex this Thu and Fri?

Sometimes, I really care about my fellow friends whom they are working in the same Asus booth with me during Comex cause afraid they dunno some knowledge ah. I am supposed to work on weekends only but Meng Tat asked me whether I can work on all days or not. Sigh.

Should I or should I not? Hmm....

Later still gotta work, headache.

4 events, memorable ones.

2008-08-24T02:25:00.005+08:00

For the past few days, I am :

1) Enjoying cycling trip with my FYP2 team mates on Wed afternoon:

A bunch of funny peeps, Pei Xin and her friend, Aiden, Xavier and I went to East Coast Park for our 1st cycling trip! HAHA!

It was quite a fun and relaxing one!

And for dinner, we settled at Fish and Co. Aiden and I ordered the Swordfish collar and it was scary because of the sheer big size of the fish. My goodness!

Ended up....

2) Going to my clique's chalet at Costa Sand Downtown East:

Continue...

I was so full...luckily the food was digest when I took 2 buses to the chalet. When I reached the chalet, it was around 1030pm le. I nearly got lost ah!

When I enter the chalet, Dennis and Yunting, as usual, will suan me de loh! HAHA! And...I wondered, how they know I went for cycling trip...hmm.

Gongyo, still have to do...but during that 2 day plus chalet, someone surprisingly ask me to chant more daimoku! HAHA!.... That person, I shall not reveal. This person, anyway, got something from me for encouraging me ah!

The chalet was a fun one with Wild Wild Wet madness and etc...

Sad that, I didn't took pics with my fellow cliques...cause I late for chalet.

3) Steamboat! With my Yr 2 Sem 1 classmates:

Quite a last min one. So, after chalet on Friday, I left the chalet @ 6am, report to work @ 9am. Finish around 5pm and rush down to Bugis to meet Kevin, Wei Lik, Poh Hong and Sandy. SONG MING LAST MIN PS US AH!!

Eh, steamboat never easy to find good one but we settle a nice nice one at Chuang Yi Pin.

3rd time going there ah...

But I realise that, Poh Hong can eat beef like nobody's business! Wow!

4) Lee Mei's farewell party @ Jamie's house

Earlier on, my brother and I went to Jamie's house for Lee Mei's farewell party. It was quite a fun one. My brother, surprisingly can blow soooo much balloons! Kudos.

When the party started around 530pm, everyone gave her a popping surprise. And I can see Lee Mei is indeed touched.

We have lotsa foods and drinks to enjoy, and I guess, I enjoy too!

Sad that, Lee Mei is leaving S'pore for Germany due to her attachment. To me, she has always been a good elder sister to me and my brother cause she is always concerning about us. And she did a very good job as Jurong Chapter Student I/C head.

I wonder who will be replacing Lee Mei when she leaves but I believe, Jurong Student Division will definitely grow stronger with great guidance from fellow believers.

(Hmm...is it time for me to reflect on "someone's" surprising word and improve my daimoku and gongyo? And, is it time for that "someone" to...nah...work hard on gongyo and daimoku?)

Withdrawal Symptoms

2008-08-20T00:19:00.002+08:00

"Please Stop Smoking, Smoking kill, Smoking Harm Your Family"

A few days back, I was chatting with my colleague Zhi Yu about smoking. He recently was admitted to TTSH because of lung problem.

He told me, beside him got 2 uncles. One got his leg amputated due to smoking. The other one's blood when being sucked out is those blackish colour.

Because of that, he decided to quit smoking.

For those friends whom know me, I admit I am a smoker, in the past.

From light smoker, I begin to smoke more each day.

Till recently, with encouragement from Zhi Yu and my FYP2 team mates, I decided to quit.

Quitting it was hard. I have no choice but to do the hard way.

2 nights before, after finishing my FYP2 meeting, I went to wait for bus and smoke till I nearly vomit. Somehow or what, the fear of smoking arrives.

Its hard to quit, perhaps...will power is the secret weapon.

In Dilemma..Again?

2008-08-16T01:05:00.003+08:00

"In life, you simply meet so many dilemma, sometimes, the solution is just in front of you."

I think, I have been missing for quite a long time le.

Instead of attending less 2 lesson of yr 3 sem 1, I went to NTU and work for Fujitsu booth. Hmm, pay was not bad, in charge was good, colleague were nice, meals were not bad. Job scope was doing sales and, eh move stocks.

NTU laptop roadshow was madness loh. 1st day everyone chiong Fujitsu, subsequently..sigh. Toshiba win.

Many funny things do happen ah. From, we keep saying 1 of the Toshiba promoter looked like Ru Hua till my colleague say me look like Chen Lei (WTH, HAHA!). Quite fun ah the job.

Too bad, we didn't take a group pic. But, guess we might see each other in other Fujitsu roadshow soon? Aha!

But now...my in charge ask me and KK to wait till end of month at the NTU computer shop and station there. Hmm... should I work or just work for Comex?

Sigh.

My horror story for FYP2 have yet to complete, FYP1 dvd cover and disc design for my team mates oso not ready...

Aiyoh.

"Sometimes, think too much isn't good at all. Just be yourself!"

Exploring....and found out...?

2008-08-04T03:34:00.003+08:00

Zooming past the expressway.
Wei Chuan went gaga..? HAHA!
And, guess where is this place.
Kang Wei posing
Bid Goodbye! And continue with what happened on Sat's FYP presentation.

Our room!
While waiting for assessors to come, we...
Another one!
Group pic with Lydia!
Bid Goodbye, A Hawker's Experience.

Last weekend, I didn't work..lazy. HAHA!.

But there are lotsa reasons.

Sat, my FYP1 presentation. I WAS NEARLY LATE, PHEW!

I reached my presentation room, set up everything ready and me and my team were like, ahem, gan cheong, nervous etc etc. AND WE WAITED like 2 hrs for our assessors to come in la!

Comments were not bad, hope we can get good result ba!

Thanks my FYP1 team mates for giving me such a memorable FYP1 days!

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And on Sunday, me in too slack state. Never work, never go temple for activity...but.

Luckily, Kang Wei asked me out for dinner. Went to his house do Gongyo then meet Aik Kai and Wei Chuan.

We went to East Coast Park for makan. Go there slack slack.

Then on the way sending Wei Chuan home, we found something interesting! A treehouse!

Location wise, I shall let u all guess ba : This place is located in a old estate but upgraded. And bus service 190 passed by there. Guess ba and tell me your guess via tagboard ba!

It was a unique treehouse, but we found out some flaws in the design. No wonder, not suitable for small kids.

Still, an interesting place!

Eh, later got school. Should I go or ps my advertising concept team? Hmm...

Something...which.

2008-07-31T23:08:00.003+08:00

I think, it has been a week since I last updated my blog.

Things were going quiteeee ok. Not perfect. But still ok.

New FYP2 team, I think my new team is going to be a great one! With Vennon (the small size guy but jovial one), Aiden (the jia kentang one), Pei Xin (The only girl...) and Xavier (From DNM one) around, I believe this team will work towards success de! : )

So far, we have finalise on concepts, choice of medium etc. So now, we gonna work on proposal le.

For FYP1 team, 2 more days, and we are separated. This sat Oral Defense, hope we can present well in front of assessors!

Module wise, still can cope. Yesterday's lesson was...ahem. Something not good happened. And, yah, somehow got a lecture from Serene. Imagine sleeping while filming...bad.

And today, I was like, slacking at home. Another off day gone like this. So just now, I went to Jurong Point and buy some DVD-R and wanted to look for Luo Zhi Xiang concert DVD. Search the whole building, don't have. Then Wei Chuan told me, his working place got but must transfer stock. Hehe. Somemore I save 15 percent lei...HAHA!

Dinner is Chicken Foldover upsized meal. As you all know, Mac meal upsized now giving free cup mah. So far collected 4 le, 1 more to go.

Tml, need to wear formal + UT. SIAN 1/2 loh!

Sigh.

Apology

2008-07-25T08:39:00.000+08:00

I sincerly apologize for my comment on my blog post which is on Monday's night. I believe, somehow, it offended some people and I have removed it accordingly.

Reminders...

2008-07-24T23:31:00.004+08:00

Hmm, after many days of struggles with my life, things get slightly better.

I finally found a FYP team and going to start meeting soon. Thanks Pei Xin for inviting me to her team!! : )

And thanks all my other friends who gave me encouragement and also help me find team...

While, meantime, I going to have this reminder and oso, some guidance my fren gave me. I am going to apply into action and realli hope, I can be a better team player in FYP 2:

my own grade + my contribution + believing in my project = V.important.

My friend told me:

just go for meetings, do work, contribute, believe work work work. not that difficult

dont sleep, dont be late, dont argue

n-e-g-o-t-i-a-t-e

be sensitive, because when you forget to bring things.. that may actually make your friend angry (Apply professionalism in ur contribution...)

K...i shall not comment too much le. Rather, let action speaks everything.

End here.